lets see. where to start. i got a new job. well its not new anymore. but ive been working at a market for a few monthes now. i'm busy but happy. its a good job. i'm with Sam like everyday. which is nice for the most part. hes a sweet guy. i kinda think sometimes i push him away cause of all my other man experiences. we went to San Francisco for his BDay. and lettme tell you. i fucking love it there! omg! here is a picture..




i want to move there as soon as i can. i still love and miss new york city, but i think it would be "fitting" to live in san fran for alil while as well.

um lets see what else.. i got a new phone. kinda doing everything i can to be a grown up. its not a bad plan. 2000 anytime minutes. unlimited txt.

i have a few friends now. yahanna. amelia. misty. josh. david. paul. homero. dani. and some other people. its good to have friends. makes it feel more like a home, then just a place. i still dont like portland that much, but its better then i thought. still boring. but its close to san fran and seattle. right now flights to sf are only 130 roundtrip. amazing!! but i dunno if i can get time off work:( boo. well ok

thats all i can think of right now. um.. yeha :) i'll be back. hah

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Burn - Sisters of Mercy

i just thought i would say.

... i fucking love this song.

reckoner by radiohead.

its so rad.


i went shopping this weekend. got some cool stuff. new shoes. a scarf. fun t shirt. and a replacement belt. i need to send andy some money for my things in nyc.

that is all. :)

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Reckoner - Radiohead

so yeha lol i havnt written in this for awhile so i thought i fill u guys up on stuff.

lets see. ive been working alot at this.. hippy grocery store.
its nice to be working again:)

ive been dating this dude named sam. who treats me really well, which is nice and refreshing. but scary at the same time. cuz ya know. who knows what will happen next.

i guess me and sam are becoming a serious thing. its nice. cuz he treats me well. and i dunno.. its nice to be treated good. haha




^^^^


um i went to seattle for the weekend befor holloween which was awesome. it was bad on the first night cuz our friends didnt answer our phonecalls. which sucked. but then we ran into someone sam knew and he let us stay at his house. i cant wait to go back!

hmm. i dunno what else to say. but yeah. lol i'll write again soon.

Current Location: my house
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: joy division - digital

so yeah. i had a dream that i had this great job. and all my friends were having a party for me.. i lived in some house on a coast. and everyone was there. and then.. i was on the porch and me and andy talked and it was good. and i woke up.. all alone in this "room" that isnt mine. lol im guna go smoke a cigarette

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Bloc Party - Plans

nothing like watching one of your ex boyfriends jack off n webcam. how uber cool. i dont miss him at all. hah and he looks abit fatter.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Burn Black - Hole

yeah. life is fun sometimes.

i might be going back to ohio to gather my belongings soon.. well i hope soon. cuz im going nuts not having anything of "mine" i mean i guess maybe this is a good way to like.. not be materialistic. right? but fuck it i want to be. so i need to get it all back. im youtubing. cuz im bored. and my brother is behind me being a tard. like always. its kinda sad. he never leaves the house. i think hes going insane. but alot of people seem to be going crazy lately. lol oh well. life sucks

heres a good video.. love it like i do.



i love trent reznor.


*dies alil*

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Peter Murphy. Trent Reznor. loves.

i dunno why. but tonight i really miss coleman. i hope hes doin good.

lets see. i woke up. ate some toast. downloaded some juliette and the licks. called sam. hung out in my PJ's until around 5. then i took a shower and hung out with same on his break. here are some pictures..







how fun.

um.. then i came home. got stoned. watched holloween.. and here we are. fun life isnt it? hehe

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Juliette and the Licks - Can't Hardly Wait

1. ARE YOU OVER 18?
uh huh.

2. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
my friend Philm's cat JetStreamer.

3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
nope. i never do.

4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
having a cigarette.

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
my cell phone. and a cd player.


7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
grilled? (baked?)


8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
um. my attitude i guess.

9. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
nope.

10. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
right now i really like this club called ACME.

11. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT.
1.Boys 2.Music 3.Weed


12. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 1 THOUSAND DOLLARS?
new jeans.

13. FAVORITE SONG(s)?
The Heinrich Maneuver . Interpol

14. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
being alone.

15. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
alittle bit of both.

16. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
biwwy. billz.

17. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
donald i think.

18. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
transformers

20. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD HAVE ONLY ONE THING?
a cute guy.

21. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
thoes weird netflicks ones.

23. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
my animals.

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR?
brown.

25. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS BRING WITH YOU?
cigarettes. phone. ipod. man bag.

27. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 8?
i'm usually with Sam by then

28.WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR BED SHEETS?
Light Blue.

29. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
Bradley Knowell.

30. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
life isnt bad.

31. WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT BEFORE Y0U GO TO BED?
depends on what mood im in.

32. Impure thoughts?
this hot guy i know.. who looks really hot with his tounge out.

Current Location: In the AC.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Peaches - The Itch

hey. i just got home alil while ago from my first Deftones concert. i always wanted to see them, but never did until tonight. even tho know everytime i hear Passenger i'm going to think of Sam now. thanks sam :)

my voice hurts from yellin all the songs. sam's head hurt from all the lights. and now im hi.

all n all it was a good day. i hope more good days come around. :)

here is a picture of me right now how fun.. i wish i could podcast.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Dandy Warhols - Not If You Were the Last Junkie on Earth